Monday marked two months since my sister left my side. It’s incredible, incomprehensible that it can possibly have been this long. I often feel as though I can just pick up my phone and call her.

It doesn’t hurt as much when I remember why I can’t call her, but the pain is still pretty dominant when it comes. it’s not something I can simply brush off or ignore.

I did not forget Monday’s date, or it’s importance, I’ve been occupied with worry over my step mother. her dad is dying, and it is obvious that she is super upset about it but trying to be strong. I’ve never met her father, my pain is in knowing what it is like to lose a parent. I’m not sure how to help her in this, so I am just doing my best to be there for her.

How often does a person worry? A normal, well balanced person i mean? Do most people in their early thirty’s look at ads for wrinkle creams with interest? Do I worry too much? I know that just in the past four days, three different people have told me on some variation or the otehr that i worry too much.

I understand that I am a glass half empty person, and that being a pessimist is rather normal, but maybe I do worry too much? I tend to worry about things both big and small, and a lot of the things I worry about are things that I have no control over, like my stepmother and how she is dealing with the imminent loss of her dad, but still I can’t stop worrying.

is there a point where I have to stop and say this is too much and see professional help, OR, am i just nitpicking and looking for more things to worry about just so that i have a ready supply of things to dwell on?

∗ Posted by bluepaintred on 07.07.2010
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