This morning i woke up to a question in my email. A friend had tweeted to me, a DM, asking me if I had sold my blog!

The very first thing I did when I read that was open up every one of my blogs, sure that I had been hacked in some way and one of my precious websites had been stolen.

But no, each of my blogs was as I had left them last night.

So why would this person think I had sold my blog?

Then the light bulb clicked on. I have been adding links in my posts. Links to things that interest ME. Links to things that I find neat interesting or informative.

Take for example, me linking to alli weight loss. I am over weight by about 20-25 pounds. Therefore, I do spend a lot of time looking up various ways to lose weight online, and its NATURAL for me to post a link to something I have found.

EVERY SINGLE WORD ON MY BLOGS BELONG TO ME. Every story and opinion I have ever written is MINE and mine alone.

Now, the reason I am writing this as a blog post, instead of emailing my questioner, is becuase if ONE person had the balls to ask me that – and it does take balls to ask a question like that, it ALSO takes a fair amount of confidence in an online friendship that the person wont get upset you asked, so I kinda felt special she did ask – AHNYWAY. If one person had the balls to ask, others may be wondering the same.

Is Bluepaintred different than it was before I “closed shop”? YES.
Was I serious when i closed the doors on this blog? YES.
I meant to let it run its course till the domain expired, copy the posts and comments to a free wordpress blog just to save it, and not renew the domain at all.

But. Then my world fell the fuck apart. My sister died and suddenly I was grasping at whatever the fuck I could reach to keep my head above the fire. And like old times, I came to running to BPR.

I will never, EVER be the same person as I was before my sister left me. EVER EVER.

As a result, bluepaintred has become more like Paint! and Where Was I?. A safe haven to spew words on a page just so i can look at them. And If I add a link to a post? it means I have been there. Sometimes it means I want you to go there becuase it is neat. Sometimes i am linking it just so that in a few weeks or months, when I want the link again, I have it.

So no. I did not sell out.

Bluepaintred is me. All me. A changed me, for sure, but ME.

∗ Posted by bluepaintred on 07.07.2010
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