What Now?

For almost three years I have gone to sleep on Sunday night expecting to see a little girl on my steps the following morning. I baby sat that little girl from the time she was one year old, she will be turning four this July. Her mom is going to have a baby mid April, and so last Friday was my last day with her.

I feel kind of lost. On a normal Sunday night I would be running about, making sure the sinks were empty and the laundry was put away. I would head to bed by 12 knowing that I had to be up to deal with the two three year olds in my life. But tomorrow my little girl will not be here. With the baby coming and her mom on maternity leave for a year, chances are she is gone now for good.

I am hoping that she and Stuperman will be enrolled in the same kindergarten class so that I will get to see her then, at least, and, who knows, maybe after the year is up, I will get to watch her brother or sister (and her before and after school). But. Thats a whole year from now, and it is right now that I am feeling so lost.

And then there is poor little Stuperman. He has had his buddy his whole life. I’ve played with him, of course, but for the most part, the two of them are off in a world of their own making. What is he going to do tomorrow when no one knocks on our front door?

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∗ Posted by bluepaintred on 03.30.2008
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Comments: 13 »

  1. Ahhh Blue

    I know you will miss her…maybe she can come for playdates with Stuperman???

    I feel sad for you because I know you are going to be lonely in the morning. Bless you Sweety.

    Comment by catch - March 31, 2008 12:36 am

  2. maternity leave for a year? is that common in canada?

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    Comment by Sheila - March 31, 2008 2:15 am

  3. Lonely, schmonely! You’re going to be driven crazy by Stuperman, who now has no distractions. Best to find a new playmate for your little guy, or you will never get a thing done. For now, enjoy the time, but be on the lookout for a new prospect; you and Stuperman will benefit :)
    Half-Past Kissin’ Time’s last blog post..Question of the Day…

    Comment by Half-Past Kissin' Time - March 31, 2008 5:42 am

  4. You obviously didn’t get that do-it-yourself cloning kit I sent you.

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    Comment by Blogarita - March 31, 2008 6:49 am

  5. You will get used to it. I’ve done this for 20 years and it is always an adjustment. If you really miss her, call the mom every now and then and offer to take the little girl off her hands for a few hours. You will get to visit and mom will get some time for herself.

    Comment by metalmom - March 31, 2008 7:17 am

  6. I need maternity leave but without having a baby.

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    Comment by Robin - March 31, 2008 7:17 am

  7. Awww… what sweet babies. I remember when Owen started school and poor Olivia was just lost for a few days. But, she adjusted and so will Stuperman. If he doesn’t, you can send him up here to play with Emi!

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    Comment by Kyra Sutra - March 31, 2008 9:09 am

  8. Poor Blue. I think it will be harder for you to adjust than for Stuperman.

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    Comment by Finn - March 31, 2008 9:42 am

  9. Oh, no girly stuff around the house! How sad.

    I think you should just have another baby.

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    Comment by Trishk - March 31, 2008 9:52 am

  10. Oooh, too much baby-pudgy-cuteness to be contained in one photograph.
    It’s overflowing and causing dangerous reproductive longings in my almost-graduated-from-having-dependent-children heart.
    I strongly second the idea of ‘borrowing’ the little angel occasionally.

    Comment by Peggy - March 31, 2008 10:01 am

  11. Awww. It will get better, hopefully! And hopefully you still see them!

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    Comment by Lynda - March 31, 2008 10:23 am

  12. arrange the wedding now… rates are cheaper if you book in advance!

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    Comment by Tori - March 31, 2008 5:43 pm

  13. HEY. Trishk stole what I was going to say. How dare she?

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    Comment by fracas - April 1, 2008 3:55 am

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